I'm not ready to talk about this

my very wonderful son hit me with some very real tough issues that have come up in his life and was asking for help.

I decided that I’m not ready to be a father.  I’ve got 5 children and I realized that I’m not qualified to mentor them in all the individual ways they need me to and that frightens me to the core.  You see, there’s one major problem, I’m a seriously flawed human being with a LOT of hang-ups.  I’m also a very selfish individual. If you didn’t know this already, being selfish and a good father are mutually exclusive approaches to life…rats.

When these little babies grow up to look down at you (figuratively…he’s actually taller than me) and have heavy life issues it’s pretty sobering.  The first advice that pops to mind “Walk it off, buddy, walk it off” doesn’t seem appropriate.  Double-rats…seems like I may just have to roll up my sleeves and get dirty.

It’s times like these that I’m SO glad that I belong to a bigger plan and a bigger planner.  This world can be so harsh and the answers to life’s questions can be so difficult to decipher. I simply cannot and do not want to imagine what it would be like to have to face the severity and seriousness of life without God and the access He has given us to Him through his Son.  I’m not being silly, I’m not being religious and I can’t imagine being more serious.  Thank you Lord, humbly, thank You for Your peace, thank you for your wisdom, please guide us, please keep us close to you and continue to teach us how to love You and how to love each other.

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